The dreamer in me hopes that you’ve noticed I’ve been gone. The more rational me knows you probably haven’t.
Nonetheless, I am back. So, where have I been and why I haven’t I blogged?
Well, because this is hard for me, although it shouldn’t be. I’ve never had trouble being open and honest with you, my dear readers. And I know how accepting and non-judgemental you all are. But for some reason, I’ve been avoiding you all. I think because I knew that when I wrote my next blog post – THIS blog post, I would have to come clean. And truth be told, I didn’t want to. I didn’t want to let you all down. I didn’t want you to think any less of me.
And really, truthfully, it’s not THAT big of deal. Well, it kind of is. To me. But, it’s done. It’s over and now you are going to know.
I failed. Yep, I failed big time.
Let’s back up. WAY up. To the weekend of July 11-12. If you all remember, I was so excited for that weekend. Why?
This is why:
I got to spend Saturday and Sunday learning how to become a personal trainer. The workshop was held right at my work, Vital Fit Club, which was the coolest part – I didn’t have to drive far! There were eight of us total – six of the people I didn’t know. There were two of us from Vital, myself and another group fitness instructor, Lisa.
Here’s the group with our instructor, Jimmy (far right, with NETA shirt on):
Here we are in class – our spin studio made for a very nice classroom!
The workshop ran from 8 a.m. until 5 p.m. on Saturday and from 8 a.m. until about 3 p.m. on Sunday. The two-day workshop culminated with a two-hour, 100-point test on Sunday. And yep, now the truth finally comes out. I failed. I didn’t pass. I flunked. I botched it. I was unsuccessful. I blew it! Big time.
No, this is not the first time I have ever failed a test. But it’s the first time as an adult that I have failed a test. I did so well on my first NETA test – the group fitness instructor one. It was the same concept. Hell, some of the questions were the same; well similar anyway. This test was harder. A lot harder. Truly, it sucked. I knew after I got done that I didn’t do well, but I thought there was a slim chance I passed. I didn’t.
I am not so sure why I felt the way I did when I got the letter. But it kind of put me in a funk. A bad funk. I truly felt like a failure. I felt like I let everyone down, especially my boss. And, I let myself down. But, it is time to move on. Finally. I will be taking the test again. Actually, I am taking the whole damn workshop again. I will be taking it September 19-20 in Winona, MN. With, I found out, the same instructor. He’s probably not going to be too surprised to see me. Well, hopefully he is.
WHEW! That actually felt good to spill the beans. Seriously. This has been weighing on my mind for quite some time. I’ve missed you all. I’ve missed writing. It feels good to be back. AND, next time, gosh darn it, I am going to pass that dang exam. At least I hope so!
So, what else is new? OH MY! So much has happened since I last wrote. I think I am going to share a little bit in lots of posts over the course of the next week.
I do want to share this though – I am doing one more bootcamp in the park before the weather gets too cold and before we run out of daylight. If you are interested in signing up, do it now before all the spots are filled.
Here’s the flyer:
And here are just some random photos from the past month and a half…ENJOY!
Fourth of July Shalom Church Fun Run 10K – Second in my age group. I beat my time from last year by five minutes and 19 seconds! Last year, my time was 1:08:36. This year, my time was 1:03:17. And yes, there were only two of us in my age group!
I “mustache” you a question! Fourth of July shenanigans with my husband….and my son!
Yes, I am actually wearing real shorts – as in not running shorts. These are the FIRST pair of shorts I have owned in many, many, many years. Still not 100 percent comfortable in them, as in I am too self conscious. But, I have worn them two or three times. That’s a huge deal for me.
Yep, this was on the trail. A snake skin. I have to say, it was pretty cool. Kind of gross, but pretty cool.
My hubby and I took a random Tuesday off not that long ago. We first went for a 5K run together and then after we showered and got ready, we biked from our house out to our local winery to have a little picnic. After that, we biked back into town, stopped at Zorbaz for a beer and popcorn. Then, we biked to my mom and dad’s, then the grocery store, the liquor store and then finally made it home. We left home on our bikes at about 2 p.m. and we didn’t get home until after 8 p.m. It was such a fun, spur of the moment, spontaneous day. We more of these kinds of days.
At the end of July, Al and I ran the Pillsbury Push 10K in Kerkhoven, MN. It was HOT! We both started off pretty good, but by mile four, we were both toast. I have to say, that was the hottest race I have ever participated in. The heat and humidity were horrible. You can tell by looking at my splits how hot I got and how much I slowed down. Mile 1 – 9:22; Mile 2 – 9:29; Mile 3 – 10:07; Mile 4 – 11:14; Mile 5 – 11:08; Mile 6 – 11:46 and the last little bit, which was actually .3, was 10:55. I ended up with an overall pace of 10:30, which truly isn’t bad, but I could have PR’d. Oh well!
At least after the race, I got to see two of my very best friends from high school! We even had breakfast together. Love these two beautiful women.
Trena is on the left and Tracy is on the right. Tracy and I have been friends since 7th grade and Trena and I have been friends since 8th grade. The three of us used to go rollerskating every single weekend! Trena actually worked at the skating rink. Oh, so much fun!
This is from another race that was in July – the Lakes Area Endurance quarter-marathon. I loved this photo, taken by Heidi Hasapopoulos, who volunteered her time to take photos at the event. I love the look on Al’s face as he is cheering me on to the finish. There is sometime magical about this photo. Thanks again to Heidi for capturing it! It will always be treasured.
Heidi also captured individual photos of us running. Looks like we both have the same running form! Love these two photos, as well. According to our watches, Al finished in 55:15 and I finished in 1:07:07, which was about two minutes better than last year’s time!
Two of my brothers, along with my sister and me as we were moving my parents into an assisted living facility. My dad has Alzheimers and needed to be moved into a facility. The move went well and I was so grateful to my siblings, along with my husband and son, for helping with the move. Mom and dad are all settled into their new apartment and I am thinking they are loving it!
Speaking of moving, my son will be moving this Friday and Saturday to an on-campus apartment at North Dakota State College of Science. He is heading off to college! I am so happy for him and extremely proud of him! I will miss the guy, but this is what he needs.
Yep, that is me. Diving. Off a cliff. Into some VERY deep water. It was AWESOME! I will write more about this later, but I just had to share this picture.
And lastly, I will also write more about this, but I just have to share this picture…of Nora, who is from Germany. I will explain all about it in another post, but I will tell you this, I miss this girl like crazy!