A letter to my friend

I had a good friend of mine send me an email the other day, asking me questions about what I’ve done. She told me I looked beautiful (which made me get all teary-eyed) and wanted to know a few things about my journey. 

Although this is information I have put out here before, I thought I would share my letter to her with the rest of you. It came from the heart and I hope you enjoy it:

Okay, so here’s the thing..first off, thanks for the compliments and letting me know you think I look beautiful. That warms my heart and is much appreciated.

Second, I will answer your questions:
Do I have more energy now that I eat better?
Well, actually, not necessarily. I actually have more energy because of the exercise I do. If I don’t exercise for a couple of days, I start to feel really, really sluggish. It’s kind of weird, really. I eat crap and don’t exercise then yes, I don’t have any energy at all. Maybe it’s the combination of the two.

Was it hard in the beginning?
Oh how I wish I could say it wasn’t, but I won’t and can’t lie to you. Yes, it was very hard and many times, I wanted to give up and yes, there were times, I did give up…for a day or two, but then I would jump right back into it. It was hard, but at the same time, I was really determined and sick and tired of the dieting roller coaster I had been on…many, many times before. This time, I didn’t look at it as a "DIET," I looked at it as a lifestyle change. I made up my mind from the beginning that if I was going to do this, I was going to do it right this time. I knew I had to change. Not only what I was eating and what I was doing, but my attitude. I had to change from the inside before I could change what was on the outside. I realized that if I was going to do this, I needed to do it for me and I knew that it had to be up to me to make the changes. I couldn’t rely on pills, shakes, "diets" or whatever claimed to be quick and easy because like I said it’s not easy and it sure as shit ain’t quick. I took it five pounds at a time. And there were times when it took me four, five or even six weeks to lose those five pounds. My average weight loss, after all was said and done, was only .8 pounds per week…..point eight, that’s less than a pound a week. I lost a total of 48 pounds so you can figure it out how long it took.

How do I get past the hunger stages?
This is kind of an easy answer. Determination and willpower. But I won’t lie, there were – actually are – times when I have neither. It is still a daily struggle. It truly is. Anyone who says it’s easy to be healthy and fit is a liar.

So, really, what has helped me the most? To be honest, Weight Watchers was a huge part of it, a key part of the whole puzzle. I started in November of 2008 and until I actually started working for Weight Watchers, which was in March of this year, I think I missed one meeting. Not everyone has the opportunity/chance/finances/time/whatever it may be to go to Weight Watchers , but I did and I am so thankful and feel so fortunate for that.

Another thing is, I had the support at home. Al has been behind me since day one. Because he does most of the cooking, he has adapted and changed the way he cooks. He cooks much healthier now and modifies recipes if need be. We eat pretty simple. Some kind of grilled meat (steak, chicken, pork, hamburgers) and some kind of veggie side dish. I can’t begin to explain how thankful I am for the support I have from him, as well as Brandon. Brandon (my son) has played a large part in this as well and has been my "cheerleader" so to speak from the beginning.

Well, I have probably wasted enough of your time. If you would ever like to hear more or if you would like to get together and we can talk more about this, I would love to. I would love to help and support you in any way I can. I truly would. Just let me know what I can do for you.

By the way, Tracy, you don’t look bad. You are gorgeous. You looked awesome in your dress on Saturday night and seriously, your hair is friggin’ awesome. I so love it. AND, you are not only beautiful on the outside, but you are beautiful on the inside. You just have to believe in that.

Take care of yourself and let me know if you would like to get together.

Love always,

My goal with my blog is not only to use it as a tool for myself, to help keep me accountable, but I write it in hopes of helping other people, others who are or were just like me. I put myself out there so that people can see they are not in this alone. I struggle just like everyone else. But I have made the change to a better, healthier lifestyle and I do love it. Truly, I do. Yes, there are bumps along the way, but that’s all part of it. I think I have said this before, but it’s the bumps that make us stronger. Right? 

If anyone has questions or wants to know anything about me or my journey, please ask. There’s not much I don’t talk about. If you would like to send me an email with a question or two, go ahead, I would love to hear from you. Send your questions, comments, ramblings to confessionsofaformerfatgirl@gmail.com. Also, you can find Confessions of a Fat Girl on Facebook. Look me up, become a fan. I would love to have you.

Thanks to everyone who takes the time to read my blog. I appreciate each and every one of you.

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