A balancing act

I am trying to find a balance with my eating habits, as well as my exercise habits. It seems I can do really well with one or the other, but not both together at one time.

When I first started this journey, I focused on getting my eating under control. I didn’t spend a lot of time on exercising. I did it here and there, but not anything with real structure. Really, truly, my focus was on my food. I cut some things out all together, limited other things and really paid attention to the size of my portions. I bought an extra set of measuring cups and spoons and a food scale. I still use all of them on a regular basis.

When I finally felt like I had my eating under control, I decided to start focusing on exercising. I know I need to do it and I always feel better after I am done. Right now, I have a program that I do three times a week, which includes strength training and cardio. It has been going really well. I am starting to enjoy it. Kind of. Well, I like the feeling when I am done. I feel so refreshed……and sweaty, of course.

I finally got my guys (hubby and son) to start exercising with me. Brandon, that’s my son in case you didn’t know his name, usually runs on the treadmill while I am doing my strength training. He typically does this for about 20 minutes. Maybe 30. Then, when I am done with that part, I get on the treadmill and Al, my husband, gets on the elliptical. He typically does this for 20 minutes. No more. No less. Regardless of how much time he spends on it, I am just happy he is doing something.

So now that I have my exercise regimen somewhat going, my eating habits are starting to go to hell. Kind of. There were three days in a row that I didn’t keep track of my food and I ALWAYS keep track. Every morsel. I feel now that I started exercising, it’s okay to treat myself more often than when I am not exercising. I am not sure why this is or if everyone feels this way. 

For instance, since Saturday, I have been to the Dairy Queen (had a medium chocolate chip cookie dough blizzard – Yikes!), I bought some caramel puff corn (ate about half the bag), ate a large bowl of cinnamon Life cereal (I kind of quit eating cereal because I like mostly sugar cereals and they are simply not good for you despite what anyone says), munched on some chips, ate several portions of real cheese (I usually weigh out my cheese into one or two ounce portions, but haven’t been. I just eat it like I don’t care) and many other things that I wouldn’t have eaten otherwise but because I am exercising feel like it’s an excuse to eat. Does that make sense?

Anyway, I am struggling to find that balance. The balance between eating healthy, exercising and feeling good. Maybe, the balance is exercising and eating what I want – still being careful and tracking – but not feeling guilty about eating naughty foods? Maybe that is what I struggle with? The whole guilt issue.

I will keep on keeping on and try to stay focused. By the way, the crazy eating and no tracking resulted in a gain this week of 1.2 pounds. I wasn’t happy about it, but I am not dwelling on it and will just work harder this week.

One thought on “A balancing act

  1. Maybe the gain was in muscle weight from exercising! You can wish, right? I understand your frustrations. I have not been sticking to my wellness plan–I did well for three months, then my work life got crazy and a little less structured, and the next thing I knew, I was stuck at my half-way point. I think if I logged what I ate, like you did, I would do better, but then I’d have to live with the guilt after reading my log. 😉


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