Food does not equal happiness

So far today, I have eaten three pieces of angel food cake, two or maybe three pieces of lemon cake with delicious from-the-can white frosting, God knows how many overly salty, but oh-so-good ripple chips, a large – okay, huge – dollop of chip dip, a couple of sloppy Joes or barbecues (whatever you want to call them), a piece of to-die-for garlic toast, a bowl of ice cream, two pieces of pizza, a bag of popcorn and my typical, everyday breakfast of yogurt, Fiber One cereal and Vitalicious vitatop muffin.

I didn’t eat all of that at one time. Thank goodness.

I had every intention of having a good food day. It started out great, but still feeling extremely sad over the loss of my mother-in-law, Lynn, I quickly spiraled downhill and couldn’t control my eating. It was nuts. Stupid, really. But at first, it felt great. At first, it almost seemed to help fill the hole I have inside me. At first, it all tasted great. At first, I didn’t care.

Now, it sucks. I regret it. I do care, but it’s too late. Now, I actually feel worse.

I am glad today is almost done. That means tomorrow is a new day and I can start all over again. I actually can’t wait for 7 a.m. – I am meeting with my trainer. Thank God. I need a good – no, wait – a GREAT workout. 

By the way, I didn’t even take the time to figure out my Weight Watchers points for today. I couldn’t. I know it would have been too depressing. I know I screwed up and that’s all that matters. I know I won’t do it again…

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One thought on “Food does not equal happiness

  1. Don’t beat yourself up over one day of compulsive eating. You know now that it doesn’t make you feel better, so it’ll be less tempting to do in the future– It was a stepping stone!

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